thank you.....

to all of the people who make me sooo happy every day.....

there is my sister.....we have had our times where we don't get along and we really are two different people...no matter how much we look alike. but i know that she would be there for me no matter what! she has been there in the delivery room for all 3 births of my kiddos and helped me out the whole time (even though she ate nasty mustard pretzels that made me want to vomit during contractions). she has also helped me through the roughest times in my life....it may have been a little harsh at times, but my life is sooo much better now not being in that situation :) and seriously...people look at us like we are totally stupid all the time because we find the dumbest things funny. we can seriously laugh for hours...literally...at the stupidest things. and the next tiem i see her, we are still laughing! i love it! and i love her!
then we have my bro....what an awesome person! he will drop anything that he is doing if i need something...when it comes to family....he will do ANYTHING!! and i just love that about him! and i love his silly soemtimes corny personality too. i can act like such an idiot and he will do it right along with me :) he has all book smarts and not so much common sense, so we can get him to believe anything! he is always thinking of others over himself...he is one great guy and i am PROUD to call him my brother...love you!

then there is silly sylvia! she is one of those friends that you don't come accross very often. she is still like a kid...and it is sooo much fun to be around her. she always has something fun for the kids to do and is always thinking of them....and she understands...it is awesome! when ellie broke her arm, she ws the first one to come and visit with a cake for her...and the rest of the kids (so they wouldn't feel left out) a balloon and an ice pack for her arm....so thoughtful! and that is how she is! awesome girl, awesome personality, awesome friend...love you!






and dustin(sylvia's fiance) is always there for jake. he is another one of those awsome people! he is a little silly at times too, but he is a great friend...to me and to jake




so then we have katie....we have recently gone through some hard times because of life changes, but no matter how much i wanted to just say...forget you....i just couldn't. katie and i have been best friends since forst grade...so we do have a history! and i couln't drop her....so we talked and now everything is back to good! i am actually going there for dinner tonight! but anyways....katie has stayed my friend for a reason. she used to act like my mom back in the day when i would do stupid stuff, but i thank her for that now! she is such a givng person, and would do anything to make her friends happy, and i love that! i have always been liek a sister to her...if she looks bad, i will let her know, and she eill do the same :) love you!



getting a little deeper now....i know i already did a post on him not too long ago, but i cannot say enough about how much this man has done for me. i came from a horrible relationship that left me down in the dumps about everything and then here comes jake to save me! how can i have so much love for someone? he is the only one i feel safe with and the only one who can REALLY comfort me in times of need. he just knows the right things to say...and when to say nothing at all. he is everything i have ever wanted all bundled up into one person! i am so happy to have this life with him and i would not trade it for anything in this world! i love you pootzie ;)




here we have my parents and in-laws....i love them to death! we always have such a great time adn it is soo great to see them act like kids again when we get together! my mom and dad have done a great job with us that is all i have to say. every family has their flaws and differences (and i should know this very well) but not once did my parents just give up on us. they kept on loving and i can see where i get all of the love in my heart. love you mom and dad!
my in-laws are the same way...jake had his flaws when he was younger too, but they got through them and now jake is seenas one of the most awesome people to them and they have nothig but love for us and our family. i FEEL like i belong in their family...and i do! love you guys!






and our KIDS!!!......oh boy, where to start? first of all these kids are my heroes....without them, i really don't know what i would be doing with myself. tey have my heart and always will. the personalities and the things they learn on a daily babsis just boggle my mind. and we created this! they are all so smart and so beautiful and so PERFECT!!!!! soemtimes i just sit and watch them and get teary eyed because they are just such miracles and if i ever lost them, it would be the worst day ever and i wouldn't be able to live. i love you my sweet kiddos....stay yourselves and always know how much you are loved...no matter what!






so thank you to all of these wonderful people...there are many more, but these people impact my life every day! LOVE LOVE LOVE you guys!

disney, here they come!

so....the girls had a BLAST!!!! 4 days with grandma and grandpa? what more could you ask for? oh yeah....mickey, minnie, princesses, makeovers....to say the least, they were in heaven!
ellie's favorite princess was belle...she loved her dress! but the thing with elles, is that she already knows that they are not the real princesses or charecters. she had fun...but the whoel time she is like "tinker belle just went down a zip line...she is not really flying" and "that is fake snow, not real snow". too smart for her own good!
kiya loved cinderella! of course...and when she came home, she told me that i shoudl dye my hair blond so i could be like cinderella.....no thanks:)


and then there was the princess boutique....i would have loved this just as much as they did! they got done up just like the princesses that they are! when they got home, kiy awas showing me the paper from what they had to choose from. ellie told me that she was a "Classic princess" and kiya was a "diva princess". and she LOVED saying diva...jake thought that was great (not). so the next morning, kiya was a little bit sick of being a "diva"....which i don't blame her, but she told me...."mom....will you take my diva out?" (meaning her hair piece) but seriously, it was soooo funny. masen thought it was great too. he kept telling her that she was a "Diba".....ha ha! and of course she got mad a t him!
anyhow, they had a great time....i hope i will be able to take them at some point! i would have loved to see the faces on them throughout the trip!



cas :)

stuuuupid

why is it that i go through sooo many electronics? i seriously have gone through about 15 cell phones in the past 2 years! blah! and i was on my second camera...now it will be the third...when i go pick the money off of my money tree and go out to buy one! so there won't be any new pics for a while..but i am going to do a post about the girls trip to disney world with my parents..they had a blast, and my mom took the pics on her camera! hope everyone is well!

halloween and such :)

ahhh yes...it has been a while, but it has been busy around here! halloween was a BLAST! i had to work on the actual night, but jake took the kiddos trick-or-treating and they had a hay day! i was a little bit scared because he was going to be the one getting the kids ready...and with two of the kiddos going as princesses, i had my doubts....but he did good! they went to a meridian neighborhood with their cousins and got some pretty good shiot! i totally had to go through it and make sure it all tasted alright :) the last house they went to was our friend bradys' house. he never fails them....instead of a couple pieces each, they each got a BAG...they love going to his house :)

the day after we had our anual halloween barn dance...and let me tell ya, that is always a good time! jade and sylvia helped me move all of the hay bails and decorate so that was nice...and then it was party time! i may have partied a little too hard, too early in the night, because i ended up going to bed around 10:30...oooopsies. but the fun didn't stop...i found out about the rest of it in the morning :) i also forgot to say that we had halloween puppies...yes, we had 8 of them...but 2 ended up being too small and they passed away :( but we have 2 chocolate females, 2 black females, 1 black male and 1 female white....sooo, for those of you who think you might need to add a doggie to your life...let me know!

and lst but not least...my sister came into town and that made me sooooooo happy! she drove down for my brother's 26th b-day..and of course we totally got down in the kitchen! we made him prime rib, garlic shrimp skewers, sesame asparagus, arugela brie, bagguettes, and some bomb mixed drinks to top it off! it was soooo good! and it was so much fun having all of my family together for the night! my sis is still here and we are heading off to kohls this morning for the big sale! so...that is it for now..but i have about 6 b-day's coming up in the family (including my little kiya...she wil be 4) we have thanksgiving and my girls are headed off to disney world and sea world with my parents...so i will have plenty to write about!
hope everyone is well!

once in a life time....

so, this post is about my husband jake. i am sooooo lucky to have such a great man in my life. i never thought i would find someone so perfect. of course he has his flaws, but don't we all. he is always behind me 100% of the time and then some.

i still love the story of how we got together...it was horrible, but for some reason we knew that we were meant to be together. and every day our love continues to grow. jake is my best friend. we will wake up in the morning and i will have crazy hair and mascara around my eyes and he still thinks i'm beautiful...and i love that!

the way he is around the kids is one more reason i love him so much. i just watch him some nights when he is wrestling on the floor with them and i think that is the sexiest thing ever. he loves having a family so much and i can tell, everyone can tell.

i have never had someone love me so much, and that feeling is something you can't replace. he is the one that tells me that he will never let me be out of his life till the day we die, and i always thought that woman was the only one that felt that way. he proves that there actually was someone for me. that was jake and i LOVE him with all i have! thanks baby, love you forever!

p.s. he hates this picture :)

the punkin patch!!

so on a lighter note than the last post.... we went to the pumpkin patch! me, sylvia, and the kiddos! and let me tell ya, it was a BLAST....for all of us! we went on the bucking cow ride, the hay ride, went through the maze, and picked out some pumpkins...oh yeah we got to see the cute animals they had as well. kiya really wanted to take home the ponies and masen now wants a goat. he thinks that they were talking to him :) i totally recommend it...even to adults cause i probably had as much fun as the kids! i love my little cuties...

i am going to try to post a video, we will see if this works...they thought i was taking their picture, but i was recording

feeling forgotten and fake friends

so i have this friend.....she used to be my best friend and now i don't know what to call her. we have made new friends over the years and that is fine, but i miss having someone to call whenever...night or day...or if i needed something, she would be there. anymore i have no idea if i even mean anything to her. the effort on her part is no longer there. i know that she is busy....but i am busy too (with 3 kids, a husband, and a job...plus 2 dogs, one being pregnant), but i always make time in my day to call and see how she is doing or what is new. lately i have been talking to her answering machine. she has her new "cowgirl" friends that think they need to sport the bling belts and buckles, fancy boots and the expensive cowgirl hats, but i will never be that. i don't like to be fake and i won't do it! and with her being so busy, she sure has a lot of time to hang out at the bars and with her"cowboy" friends. i feel so forgotten.... she is the godmother to ellie and i feel like she has forgotten about her too. all of my other friends pay more attention and care more about my kids than she does and it hurts my feelings as well as the kids.... they love her.
i guess all i have to say to her is that she is missing out. hopefully she pulls her head out and realizes what really matters someday. it's not all about the buckles, boots and cowboys.......

and then there is another friend i have....she calls all of the time wondering when we are going to hang out....without my kids. i thought she was a great person...but it is fake. she hates kids...and remember that i have 3...and they are part of my life...everyday....24/7 and i could really care less if you don't like kids...if you want to hang out with me, you gotta deal. so anyways...she is always pissed if i can't go out and gives me guilt trip upon guilt trip.... i can't stand it anymore. and to top it off, i heard some really hurtful things that she said behind my back. if you don't know me..i am a redneck...not a trashy one, i just enjoy doing some pretty redneck things. i like cutting elk meat, i like rope swinging in the barn, i love bon fires, i don't always keep things spotless. and i heard that she was telling people that she got a sickness from us....our kids, and if you are a mother i'm sure you could relate that if anyone says shit about your kids, you get MAD! and she denies it...with a red face and stumbling over her words. true friends don't talk shit about you behind your back!
so that is that....thank you to the friends that have stuck by me and my kids...you are appreciated!

pendelton rocked!

so my girls weekend was sooooo much fun! on friday darcy picked me up and we took off for the rodeo....we started to get a little bit hungry and decided that we should get something to eat since the only thing we would have after that would be ....alcohol. so we stopped at the subway in baker...i loved subway when i got there, and when we left, i hated it! the girl making my sanwich looked like she was fresh out of a rave (sweaty hair, smeared purple and green makeup, baggy jincos) and she was one of the most unpleasant people i have ever met. so anyways...it took her about 7 minutes (not joking) to get her gloves on and she blew into them to get them to open up so she could slip her greasy hand in (aren't they supposed to wear them to avoid jerms?) so she puts her gloves on and i tell her that i would like chicken on my sandwich...she gets out the bag of chicken and looks through it throwing away 2 peices before she finds on that doesn't have mold or whatever on it...so i was getting grossed out, then she asks me what cheese i would like,i would like swiss.....so she gowes through the cheese throwing away the top 5 peices before finding one to put on my sandwich... and then scrapes the onion off of the bottom of the bucket and tosses it on there too. so f-ing nasty! so do you think i wanted to eat that? no! but you know what...i did. and i didn't even throw up! so then i went to the liquor store and got CORN whiskey and i should have known that it was going to be nasty because it is a lighter version of moon shine, it was called shine on. so we get to the hotel in pendleton and find 3 guys standing by their tailgate with several top shelf liquors. we got out and of course...we were offered a shot. and of course....i took one...or two...ok it was 3! and so i let them have the first pull off of the "shine on." and that was the last drink they would ever have of that stuff...they almost threw up and then i called them pussies and took one myself....and they really were not pussies... so i was soon nicknamed virgina moon (it was distilled in virginia).

so we went up to the room and got ready for the night and headed off to town. now this is where things start getting fuzzy...ha ha! we went to a couple bars and headed to the convention center to the dance...i don't know why, but for some reason i got all mixed up and lost jade and megan so i had to call darcy and have her pick me up at the high school (keep in mind that we are at the convention center, not the high school) so they call me from the high school wondering wher i am and why the hell i would go to the high school. so after we got it clarified that i was not there, they picked me up and we headed downtown again! we went to a couple awesome bars and i was denied in one of them...i guess i was swaying back and forth. after that we headed back to darcy's friends' place where i fell fast to sleep (aka passed out ) and while i was sleeping there was a bangin party going on outside and i had no idea...weird! so i woke up to find myself phoneless. i must have lost it downtown...along with my pride...ha ha. i didn't mention that i was trying for an hour to get on the stage with the band...yeah, retarded.

no phone, so i had to wait to find a ride back to the hotel where i found jade sick as a dog.....and she would not be recovered until like 6 o'clock, so i walked around the booths with darcy and found the kids and hubby some sweet ass pendleton gear, and then we took off to the rodeo...we got our beers and nursed ourselves back to buzzed again (i'm not an alcoholic b.t.w.) and that rodeo is AMAZING! the stock and the cowboys and girls were awesome! this is a 5 hour rodeo, so ther is alot to see. after that we were standing around and i heard a voice yelling "virginia moon....virginia moon" and it ws those guys...oh lord! they were wasted and telling me that they had been talking about me and the whiskey for 24hours. they were pretty damn comical.

after we got away from them, we went out again and visited all of the same places as the night before...it was a blast!

so that is my weekend...there were plenty more things that happened, but i only told a few!