once in a life time....

so, this post is about my husband jake. i am sooooo lucky to have such a great man in my life. i never thought i would find someone so perfect. of course he has his flaws, but don't we all. he is always behind me 100% of the time and then some.

i still love the story of how we got together...it was horrible, but for some reason we knew that we were meant to be together. and every day our love continues to grow. jake is my best friend. we will wake up in the morning and i will have crazy hair and mascara around my eyes and he still thinks i'm beautiful...and i love that!

the way he is around the kids is one more reason i love him so much. i just watch him some nights when he is wrestling on the floor with them and i think that is the sexiest thing ever. he loves having a family so much and i can tell, everyone can tell.

i have never had someone love me so much, and that feeling is something you can't replace. he is the one that tells me that he will never let me be out of his life till the day we die, and i always thought that woman was the only one that felt that way. he proves that there actually was someone for me. that was jake and i LOVE him with all i have! thanks baby, love you forever!

p.s. he hates this picture :)

the punkin patch!!

so on a lighter note than the last post.... we went to the pumpkin patch! me, sylvia, and the kiddos! and let me tell ya, it was a BLAST....for all of us! we went on the bucking cow ride, the hay ride, went through the maze, and picked out some pumpkins...oh yeah we got to see the cute animals they had as well. kiya really wanted to take home the ponies and masen now wants a goat. he thinks that they were talking to him :) i totally recommend it...even to adults cause i probably had as much fun as the kids! i love my little cuties...

i am going to try to post a video, we will see if this works...they thought i was taking their picture, but i was recording

feeling forgotten and fake friends

so i have this friend.....she used to be my best friend and now i don't know what to call her. we have made new friends over the years and that is fine, but i miss having someone to call whenever...night or day...or if i needed something, she would be there. anymore i have no idea if i even mean anything to her. the effort on her part is no longer there. i know that she is busy....but i am busy too (with 3 kids, a husband, and a job...plus 2 dogs, one being pregnant), but i always make time in my day to call and see how she is doing or what is new. lately i have been talking to her answering machine. she has her new "cowgirl" friends that think they need to sport the bling belts and buckles, fancy boots and the expensive cowgirl hats, but i will never be that. i don't like to be fake and i won't do it! and with her being so busy, she sure has a lot of time to hang out at the bars and with her"cowboy" friends. i feel so forgotten.... she is the godmother to ellie and i feel like she has forgotten about her too. all of my other friends pay more attention and care more about my kids than she does and it hurts my feelings as well as the kids.... they love her.
i guess all i have to say to her is that she is missing out. hopefully she pulls her head out and realizes what really matters someday. it's not all about the buckles, boots and cowboys.......

and then there is another friend i have....she calls all of the time wondering when we are going to hang out....without my kids. i thought she was a great person...but it is fake. she hates kids...and remember that i have 3...and they are part of my life...everyday....24/7 and i could really care less if you don't like kids...if you want to hang out with me, you gotta deal. so anyways...she is always pissed if i can't go out and gives me guilt trip upon guilt trip.... i can't stand it anymore. and to top it off, i heard some really hurtful things that she said behind my back. if you don't know me..i am a redneck...not a trashy one, i just enjoy doing some pretty redneck things. i like cutting elk meat, i like rope swinging in the barn, i love bon fires, i don't always keep things spotless. and i heard that she was telling people that she got a sickness from us....our kids, and if you are a mother i'm sure you could relate that if anyone says shit about your kids, you get MAD! and she denies it...with a red face and stumbling over her words. true friends don't talk shit about you behind your back!
so that is that....thank you to the friends that have stuck by me and my kids...you are appreciated!