WOW...where has the time gone??

hello! it has been waaaaay too long since my last post...and it was bitchy...so i will say some positive things in this one :)
things have been going great here. i am a little sick of the cold (ok, a LOT sick of it) but we only have a few more months before it starts warming up....and before i can get my tan back :)
ellie just finished her fist 100 days of kindergarten and they were planning a BIG party for today! along with a valentines party....i cannot wait to see the valentines she brings home! she has been doing AWESOME so far! she has had GREAT report cards and she is enjoying school! she is about 5 inches taller than everyone in her class...so obviously she is taking after my mom. she has recently lost 2 teeth including one of her front ones, so she looks so cute! the tooth fairy needs to get a better job now...ha ha!
and speaking of jobs....jake has been laid off for the past while...so it has been pretty hard around here. it has been soooo weird having him home. fun...but just weird. i need my cassie time, so i have been sending him out to do little odds and ends :) cute lil' jake. i think he gets it.
the other 2 rugrats have been keeping me busy. it is so hard to find things to do inside while the weather is bad...but we manage. kiya is totally into drawing pictures. she seriously draws the CUTEST unicorns...and she is starting to draw people riding them. she wants to be 5 soooooo bad, cause she wants to go to school. so she tells me things like "mom, i folded blankets and cleaned my room, can i be 5 now?" i can wait another year before she goes to school because i have a feeling that we will be getting a lot of phone calls home with her....
masen is growing like a little weed. he thinks he knows EVERYTHING! but i guess he kinda does. he is almost potty trained...which i cannot wait for! he just has issues with the pooping thing, because he doesn't want anyone to see him poop...which i can understand :) he still talks about going hunting allll the time with jake. they sit up and wait for me to get home and watch elk and deer hunting videos. he also LOVES drawing. he draws alligators, frogs, deer, elk...they all kinda look the same...but they are sure cute! and lately he has been telling me "mom you are pretty, and dad, he is just cool" ...and ....everything that he says that is is exciteg, after he is done, he will say "mom/dad....you think thats cool?" i guessthe word cool is pretty....cool!
jake and i are getting ready to go on a little weekend vacation to halfway in a couple weeks. he is going to bring a friend and go horn hunting, and i am bringing liz, so we can go on some awesome hikes and hit up the small town bars :) i'm sure some great pics will come out of that!
hope everyone is well...i will post pics later today!

and p.s.
i am not talking about anyone that was in my last post. i love my sister, brother, katie, sylvia, parents, and in-laws........ and i DO know that they love me back..... so thanks. and at least i still have you all :)

WHY???

wow....it has been a while! but this is not going to be a chipper post....because i am not chipper at the moment. i am actually quite bitchy and a little on the sad side.
i have come to the conclusion that there is only ONE person in my life right now that i can count on. and that person is jake.
why do things have to come up with friends all the time? maybe it is my choice of friends? maybe i count on them too much? maybe i just love people without them loving me back...and i never see it.....until waaaay later? well.....whatever it is, i need to do something about it.
in the last week 2 friendships i had have been very tested. and may even be OVER. and i hate it! i think i am a good friend. i love to have people over, and i love to cook them dinner, and i love to just have the "fun" company. so why can a so called friend turn around and tell me that i am FAKE and that i don't care about anyone but myself? really? am i like that? that is deffinently not the impression i try to give off and i have never thought those things of myself....so how could my friend think that?
uhhhhg.....i just want to cry!! but i won't....i will try to be strong, and maybe try to be a better person? but really, if i cared so much about myself and nobody else....i wouldn't have a marriage or kids that loved me. i don't know what to do.
those are my thoughts for now. i hope things get better.....and if i have ever come off that way to anyone else....i am sorry

thank you.....

to all of the people who make me sooo happy every day.....

there is my sister.....we have had our times where we don't get along and we really are two different people...no matter how much we look alike. but i know that she would be there for me no matter what! she has been there in the delivery room for all 3 births of my kiddos and helped me out the whole time (even though she ate nasty mustard pretzels that made me want to vomit during contractions). she has also helped me through the roughest times in my life....it may have been a little harsh at times, but my life is sooo much better now not being in that situation :) and seriously...people look at us like we are totally stupid all the time because we find the dumbest things funny. we can seriously laugh for hours...literally...at the stupidest things. and the next tiem i see her, we are still laughing! i love it! and i love her!
then we have my bro....what an awesome person! he will drop anything that he is doing if i need something...when it comes to family....he will do ANYTHING!! and i just love that about him! and i love his silly soemtimes corny personality too. i can act like such an idiot and he will do it right along with me :) he has all book smarts and not so much common sense, so we can get him to believe anything! he is always thinking of others over himself...he is one great guy and i am PROUD to call him my brother...love you!

then there is silly sylvia! she is one of those friends that you don't come accross very often. she is still like a kid...and it is sooo much fun to be around her. she always has something fun for the kids to do and is always thinking of them....and she understands...it is awesome! when ellie broke her arm, she ws the first one to come and visit with a cake for her...and the rest of the kids (so they wouldn't feel left out) a balloon and an ice pack for her arm....so thoughtful! and that is how she is! awesome girl, awesome personality, awesome friend...love you!






and dustin(sylvia's fiance) is always there for jake. he is another one of those awsome people! he is a little silly at times too, but he is a great friend...to me and to jake




so then we have katie....we have recently gone through some hard times because of life changes, but no matter how much i wanted to just say...forget you....i just couldn't. katie and i have been best friends since forst grade...so we do have a history! and i couln't drop her....so we talked and now everything is back to good! i am actually going there for dinner tonight! but anyways....katie has stayed my friend for a reason. she used to act like my mom back in the day when i would do stupid stuff, but i thank her for that now! she is such a givng person, and would do anything to make her friends happy, and i love that! i have always been liek a sister to her...if she looks bad, i will let her know, and she eill do the same :) love you!



getting a little deeper now....i know i already did a post on him not too long ago, but i cannot say enough about how much this man has done for me. i came from a horrible relationship that left me down in the dumps about everything and then here comes jake to save me! how can i have so much love for someone? he is the only one i feel safe with and the only one who can REALLY comfort me in times of need. he just knows the right things to say...and when to say nothing at all. he is everything i have ever wanted all bundled up into one person! i am so happy to have this life with him and i would not trade it for anything in this world! i love you pootzie ;)




here we have my parents and in-laws....i love them to death! we always have such a great time adn it is soo great to see them act like kids again when we get together! my mom and dad have done a great job with us that is all i have to say. every family has their flaws and differences (and i should know this very well) but not once did my parents just give up on us. they kept on loving and i can see where i get all of the love in my heart. love you mom and dad!
my in-laws are the same way...jake had his flaws when he was younger too, but they got through them and now jake is seenas one of the most awesome people to them and they have nothig but love for us and our family. i FEEL like i belong in their family...and i do! love you guys!






and our KIDS!!!......oh boy, where to start? first of all these kids are my heroes....without them, i really don't know what i would be doing with myself. tey have my heart and always will. the personalities and the things they learn on a daily babsis just boggle my mind. and we created this! they are all so smart and so beautiful and so PERFECT!!!!! soemtimes i just sit and watch them and get teary eyed because they are just such miracles and if i ever lost them, it would be the worst day ever and i wouldn't be able to live. i love you my sweet kiddos....stay yourselves and always know how much you are loved...no matter what!






so thank you to all of these wonderful people...there are many more, but these people impact my life every day! LOVE LOVE LOVE you guys!

disney, here they come!

so....the girls had a BLAST!!!! 4 days with grandma and grandpa? what more could you ask for? oh yeah....mickey, minnie, princesses, makeovers....to say the least, they were in heaven!
ellie's favorite princess was belle...she loved her dress! but the thing with elles, is that she already knows that they are not the real princesses or charecters. she had fun...but the whoel time she is like "tinker belle just went down a zip line...she is not really flying" and "that is fake snow, not real snow". too smart for her own good!
kiya loved cinderella! of course...and when she came home, she told me that i shoudl dye my hair blond so i could be like cinderella.....no thanks:)


and then there was the princess boutique....i would have loved this just as much as they did! they got done up just like the princesses that they are! when they got home, kiy awas showing me the paper from what they had to choose from. ellie told me that she was a "Classic princess" and kiya was a "diva princess". and she LOVED saying diva...jake thought that was great (not). so the next morning, kiya was a little bit sick of being a "diva"....which i don't blame her, but she told me...."mom....will you take my diva out?" (meaning her hair piece) but seriously, it was soooo funny. masen thought it was great too. he kept telling her that she was a "Diba".....ha ha! and of course she got mad a t him!
anyhow, they had a great time....i hope i will be able to take them at some point! i would have loved to see the faces on them throughout the trip!



cas :)

stuuuupid

why is it that i go through sooo many electronics? i seriously have gone through about 15 cell phones in the past 2 years! blah! and i was on my second camera...now it will be the third...when i go pick the money off of my money tree and go out to buy one! so there won't be any new pics for a while..but i am going to do a post about the girls trip to disney world with my parents..they had a blast, and my mom took the pics on her camera! hope everyone is well!

halloween and such :)

ahhh yes...it has been a while, but it has been busy around here! halloween was a BLAST! i had to work on the actual night, but jake took the kiddos trick-or-treating and they had a hay day! i was a little bit scared because he was going to be the one getting the kids ready...and with two of the kiddos going as princesses, i had my doubts....but he did good! they went to a meridian neighborhood with their cousins and got some pretty good shiot! i totally had to go through it and make sure it all tasted alright :) the last house they went to was our friend bradys' house. he never fails them....instead of a couple pieces each, they each got a BAG...they love going to his house :)

the day after we had our anual halloween barn dance...and let me tell ya, that is always a good time! jade and sylvia helped me move all of the hay bails and decorate so that was nice...and then it was party time! i may have partied a little too hard, too early in the night, because i ended up going to bed around 10:30...oooopsies. but the fun didn't stop...i found out about the rest of it in the morning :) i also forgot to say that we had halloween puppies...yes, we had 8 of them...but 2 ended up being too small and they passed away :( but we have 2 chocolate females, 2 black females, 1 black male and 1 female white....sooo, for those of you who think you might need to add a doggie to your life...let me know!

and lst but not least...my sister came into town and that made me sooooooo happy! she drove down for my brother's 26th b-day..and of course we totally got down in the kitchen! we made him prime rib, garlic shrimp skewers, sesame asparagus, arugela brie, bagguettes, and some bomb mixed drinks to top it off! it was soooo good! and it was so much fun having all of my family together for the night! my sis is still here and we are heading off to kohls this morning for the big sale! so...that is it for now..but i have about 6 b-day's coming up in the family (including my little kiya...she wil be 4) we have thanksgiving and my girls are headed off to disney world and sea world with my parents...so i will have plenty to write about!
hope everyone is well!