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WOW...where has the time gone??

2009-02-12T10:47:00.000-08:00

hello! it has been waaaaay too long since my last post...and it was bitchy...so i will say some positive things in this one :)
things have been going great here. i am a little sick of the cold (ok, a LOT sick of it) but we only have a few more months before it starts warming up....and before i can get my tan back :)
ellie just finished her fist 100 days of kindergarten and they were planning a BIG party for today! along with a valentines party....i cannot wait to see the valentines she brings home! she has been doing AWESOME so far! she has had GREAT report cards and she is enjoying school! she is about 5 inches taller than everyone in her class...so obviously she is taking after my mom. she has recently lost 2 teeth including one of her front ones, so she looks so cute! the tooth fairy needs to get a better job now...ha ha!
and speaking of jobs....jake has been laid off for the past while...so it has been pretty hard around here. it has been soooo weird having him home. fun...but just weird. i need my cassie time, so i have been sending him out to do little odds and ends :) cute lil' jake. i think he gets it.
the other 2 rugrats have been keeping me busy. it is so hard to find things to do inside while the weather is bad...but we manage. kiya is totally into drawing pictures. she seriously draws the CUTEST unicorns...and she is starting to draw people riding them. she wants to be 5 soooooo bad, cause she wants to go to school. so she tells me things like "mom, i folded blankets and cleaned my room, can i be 5 now?" i can wait another year before she goes to school because i have a feeling that we will be getting a lot of phone calls home with her....
masen is growing like a little weed. he thinks he knows EVERYTHING! but i guess he kinda does. he is almost potty trained...which i cannot wait for! he just has issues with the pooping thing, because he doesn't want anyone to see him poop...which i can understand :) he still talks about going hunting allll the time with jake. they sit up and wait for me to get home and watch elk and deer hunting videos. he also LOVES drawing. he draws alligators, frogs, deer, elk...they all kinda look the same...but they are sure cute! and lately he has been telling me "mom you are pretty, and dad, he is just cool" ...and ....everything that he says that is is exciteg, after he is done, he will say "mom/dad....you think thats cool?" i guessthe word cool is pretty....cool!
jake and i are getting ready to go on a little weekend vacation to halfway in a couple weeks. he is going to bring a friend and go horn hunting, and i am bringing liz, so we can go on some awesome hikes and hit up the small town bars :) i'm sure some great pics will come out of that!
hope everyone is well...i will post pics later today!

2009-01-16T10:18:00.000-08:00

and p.s.
i am not talking about anyone that was in my last post. i love my sister, brother, katie, sylvia, parents, and in-laws........ and i DO know that they love me back..... so thanks. and at least i still have you all :)

WHY???

2009-01-16T10:04:00.000-08:00

wow....it has been a while! but this is not going to be a chipper post....because i am not chipper at the moment. i am actually quite bitchy and a little on the sad side.
i have come to the conclusion that there is only ONE person in my life right now that i can count on. and that person is jake.
why do things have to come up with friends all the time? maybe it is my choice of friends? maybe i count on them too much? maybe i just love people without them loving me back...and i never see it.....until waaaay later? well.....whatever it is, i need to do something about it.
in the last week 2 friendships i had have been very tested. and may even be OVER. and i hate it! i think i am a good friend. i love to have people over, and i love to cook them dinner, and i love to just have the "fun" company. so why can a so called friend turn around and tell me that i am FAKE and that i don't care about anyone but myself? really? am i like that? that is deffinently not the impression i try to give off and i have never thought those things of myself....so how could my friend think that?
uhhhhg.....i just want to cry!! but i won't....i will try to be strong, and maybe try to be a better person? but really, if i cared so much about myself and nobody else....i wouldn't have a marriage or kids that loved me. i don't know what to do.
those are my thoughts for now. i hope things get better.....and if i have ever come off that way to anyone else....i am sorry

thank you.....

2008-12-11T08:08:00.000-08:00

to all of the people who make me sooo happy every day.....

there is my sister.....we have had our times where we don't get along and we really are two different people...no matter how much we look alike. but i know that she would be there for me no matter what! she has been there in the delivery room for all 3 births of my kiddos and helped me out the whole time (even though she ate nasty mustard pretzels that made me want to vomit during contractions). she has also helped me through the roughest times in my life....it may have been a little harsh at times, but my life is sooo much better now not being in that situation :) and seriously...people look at us like we are totally stupid all the time because we find the dumbest things funny. we can seriously laugh for hours...literally...at the stupidest things. and the next tiem i see her, we are still laughing! i love it! and i love her!
then we have my bro....what an awesome person! he will drop anything that he is doing if i need something...when it comes to family....he will do ANYTHING!! and i just love that about him! and i love his silly soemtimes corny personality too. i can act like such an idiot and he will do it right along with me :) he has all book smarts and not so much common sense, so we can get him to believe anything! he is always thinking of others over himself...he is one great guy and i am PROUD to call him my brother...love you!

then there is silly sylvia! she is one of those friends that you don't come accross very often. she is still like a kid...and it is sooo much fun to be around her. she always has something fun for the kids to do and is always thinking of them....and she understands...it is awesome! when ellie broke her arm, she ws the first one to come and visit with a cake for her...and the rest of the kids (so they wouldn't feel left out) a balloon and an ice pack for her arm....so thoughtful! and that is how she is! awesome girl, awesome personality, awesome friend...love you!

and dustin(sylvia's fiance) is always there for jake. he is another one of those awsome people! he is a little silly at times too, but he is a great friend...to me and to jake

so then we have katie....we have recently gone through some hard times because of life changes, but no matter how much i wanted to just say...forget you....i just couldn't. katie and i have been best friends since forst grade...so we do have a history! and i couln't drop her....so we talked and now everything is back to good! i am actually going there for dinner tonight! but anyways....katie has stayed my friend for a reason. she used to act like my mom back in the day when i would do stupid stuff, but i thank her for that now! she is such a givng person, and would do anything to make her friends happy, and i love that! i have always been liek a sister to her...if she looks bad, i will let her know, and she eill do the same :) love you!

getting a little deeper now....i know i already did a post on him not too long ago, but i cannot say enough about how much this man has done for me. i came from a horrible relationship that left me down in the dumps about everything and then here comes jake to save me! how can i have so much love for someone? he is the only one i feel safe with and the only one who can REALLY comfort me in times of need. he just knows the right things to say...and when to say nothing at all. he is everything i have ever wanted all bundled up into one person! i am so happy to have this life with him and i would not trade it for anything in this world! i love you pootzie ;)

here we have my parents and in-laws....i love them to death! we always have such a great time adn it is soo great to see them act like kids again when we get together! my mom and dad have done a great job with us that is all i have to say. every family has their flaws and differences (and i should know this very well) but not once did my parents just give up on us. they kept on loving and i can see where i get all of the love in my heart. love you mom and dad!
my in-laws are the same way...jake had his flaws when he was younger too, but they got through them and now jake is seenas one of the most awesome people to them and they have nothig but love for us and our family. i FEEL like i belong in their family...and i do! love you guys!

and our KIDS!!!......oh boy, where to start? first of all these kids are my heroes....without them, i really don't know what i would be doing with myself. tey have my heart and always will. the personalities and the things they learn on a daily babsis just boggle my mind. and we created this! they are all so smart and so beautiful and so PERFECT!!!!! soemtimes i just sit and watch them and get teary eyed because they are just such miracles and if i ever lost them, it would be the worst day ever and i wouldn't be able to live. i love you my sweet kiddos....stay yourselves and always know how much you are loved...no matter what!

so thank you to all of these wonderful people...there are many more, but these people impact my life every day! LOVE LOVE LOVE you guys!

disney, here they come!

2008-11-25T09:46:00.000-08:00

so....the girls had a BLAST!!!! 4 days with grandma and grandpa? what more could you ask for? oh yeah....mickey, minnie, princesses, makeovers....to say the least, they were in heaven!
ellie's favorite princess was belle...she loved her dress! but the thing with elles, is that she already knows that they are not the real princesses or charecters. she had fun...but the whoel time she is like "tinker belle just went down a zip line...she is not really flying" and "that is fake snow, not real snow". too smart for her own good!
kiya loved cinderella! of course...and when she came home, she told me that i shoudl dye my hair blond so i could be like cinderella.....no thanks:)

and then there was the princess boutique....i would have loved this just as much as they did! they got done up just like the princesses that they are! when they got home, kiy awas showing me the paper from what they had to choose from. ellie told me that she was a "Classic princess" and kiya was a "diva princess". and she LOVED saying diva...jake thought that was great (not). so the next morning, kiya was a little bit sick of being a "diva"....which i don't blame her, but she told me...."mom....will you take my diva out?" (meaning her hair piece) but seriously, it was soooo funny. masen thought it was great too. he kept telling her that she was a "Diba".....ha ha! and of course she got mad a t him!
anyhow, they had a great time....i hope i will be able to take them at some point! i would have loved to see the faces on them throughout the trip!

cas :)

stuuuupid

2008-11-25T09:33:00.000-08:00

why is it that i go through sooo many electronics? i seriously have gone through about 15 cell phones in the past 2 years! blah! and i was on my second camera...now it will be the third...when i go pick the money off of my money tree and go out to buy one! so there won't be any new pics for a while..but i am going to do a post about the girls trip to disney world with my parents..they had a blast, and my mom took the pics on her camera! hope everyone is well!

halloween and such :)

2008-11-06T07:08:00.000-08:00

ahhh yes...it has been a while, but it has been busy around here! halloween was a BLAST! i had to work on the actual night, but jake took the kiddos trick-or-treating and they had a hay day! i was a little bit scared because he was going to be the one getting the kids ready...and with two of the kiddos going as princesses, i had my doubts....but he did good! they went to a meridian neighborhood with their cousins and got some pretty good shiot! i totally had to go through it and make sure it all tasted alright :) the last house they went to was our friend bradys' house. he never fails them....instead of a couple pieces each, they each got a BAG...they love going to his house :)

the day after we had our anual halloween barn dance...and let me tell ya, that is always a good time! jade and sylvia helped me move all of the hay bails and decorate so that was nice...and then it was party time! i may have partied a little too hard, too early in the night, because i ended up going to bed around 10:30...oooopsies. but the fun didn't stop...i found out about the rest of it in the morning :) i also forgot to say that we had halloween puppies...yes, we had 8 of them...but 2 ended up being too small and they passed away :( but we have 2 chocolate females, 2 black females, 1 black male and 1 female white....sooo, for those of you who think you might need to add a doggie to your life...let me know!

and lst but not least...my sister came into town and that made me sooooooo happy! she drove down for my brother's 26th b-day..and of course we totally got down in the kitchen! we made him prime rib, garlic shrimp skewers, sesame asparagus, arugela brie, bagguettes, and some bomb mixed drinks to top it off! it was soooo good! and it was so much fun having all of my family together for the night! my sis is still here and we are heading off to kohls this morning for the big sale! so...that is it for now..but i have about 6 b-day's coming up in the family (including my little kiya...she wil be 4) we have thanksgiving and my girls are headed off to disney world and sea world with my parents...so i will have plenty to write about!
hope everyone is well!

once in a life time....

2008-10-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

so, this post is about my husband jake. i am sooooo lucky to have such a great man in my life. i never thought i would find someone so perfect. of course he has his flaws, but don't we all. he is always behind me 100% of the time and then some.

i still love the story of how we got together...it was horrible, but for some reason we knew that we were meant to be together. and every day our love continues to grow. jake is my best friend. we will wake up in the morning and i will have crazy hair and mascara around my eyes and he still thinks i'm beautiful...and i love that!

the way he is around the kids is one more reason i love him so much. i just watch him some nights when he is wrestling on the floor with them and i think that is the sexiest thing ever. he loves having a family so much and i can tell, everyone can tell.

i have never had someone love me so much, and that feeling is something you can't replace. he is the one that tells me that he will never let me be out of his life till the day we die, and i always thought that woman was the only one that felt that way. he proves that there actually was someone for me. that was jake and i LOVE him with all i have! thanks baby, love you forever!

p.s. he hates this picture :)

the punkin patch!!

2008-10-08T12:52:00.000-07:00

so on a lighter note than the last post.... we went to the pumpkin patch! me, sylvia, and the kiddos! and let me tell ya, it was a BLAST....for all of us! we went on the bucking cow ride, the hay ride, went through the maze, and picked out some pumpkins...oh yeah we got to see the cute animals they had as well. kiya really wanted to take home the ponies and masen now wants a goat. he thinks that they were talking to him :) i totally recommend it...even to adults cause i probably had as much fun as the kids! i love my little cuties...

i am going to try to post a video, we will see if this works...they thought i was taking their picture, but i was recording

feeling forgotten and fake friends

2008-10-08T12:23:00.000-07:00

so i have this friend.....she used to be my best friend and now i don't know what to call her. we have made new friends over the years and that is fine, but i miss having someone to call whenever...night or day...or if i needed something, she would be there. anymore i have no idea if i even mean anything to her. the effort on her part is no longer there. i know that she is busy....but i am busy too (with 3 kids, a husband, and a job...plus 2 dogs, one being pregnant), but i always make time in my day to call and see how she is doing or what is new. lately i have been talking to her answering machine. she has her new "cowgirl" friends that think they need to sport the bling belts and buckles, fancy boots and the expensive cowgirl hats, but i will never be that. i don't like to be fake and i won't do it! and with her being so busy, she sure has a lot of time to hang out at the bars and with her"cowboy" friends. i feel so forgotten.... she is the godmother to ellie and i feel like she has forgotten about her too. all of my other friends pay more attention and care more about my kids than she does and it hurts my feelings as well as the kids.... they love her.
i guess all i have to say to her is that she is missing out. hopefully she pulls her head out and realizes what really matters someday. it's not all about the buckles, boots and cowboys.......

and then there is another friend i have....she calls all of the time wondering when we are going to hang out....without my kids. i thought she was a great person...but it is fake. she hates kids...and remember that i have 3...and they are part of my life...everyday....24/7 and i could really care less if you don't like kids...if you want to hang out with me, you gotta deal. so anyways...she is always pissed if i can't go out and gives me guilt trip upon guilt trip.... i can't stand it anymore. and to top it off, i heard some really hurtful things that she said behind my back. if you don't know me..i am a redneck...not a trashy one, i just enjoy doing some pretty redneck things. i like cutting elk meat, i like rope swinging in the barn, i love bon fires, i don't always keep things spotless. and i heard that she was telling people that she got a sickness from us....our kids, and if you are a mother i'm sure you could relate that if anyone says shit about your kids, you get MAD! and she denies it...with a red face and stumbling over her words. true friends don't talk shit about you behind your back!
so that is that....thank you to the friends that have stuck by me and my kids...you are appreciated!

pendelton rocked!

2008-09-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

so my girls weekend was sooooo much fun! on friday darcy picked me up and we took off for the rodeo....we started to get a little bit hungry and decided that we should get something to eat since the only thing we would have after that would be ....alcohol. so we stopped at the subway in baker...i loved subway when i got there, and when we left, i hated it! the girl making my sanwich looked like she was fresh out of a rave (sweaty hair, smeared purple and green makeup, baggy jincos) and she was one of the most unpleasant people i have ever met. so anyways...it took her about 7 minutes (not joking) to get her gloves on and she blew into them to get them to open up so she could slip her greasy hand in (aren't they supposed to wear them to avoid jerms?) so she puts her gloves on and i tell her that i would like chicken on my sandwich...she gets out the bag of chicken and looks through it throwing away 2 peices before she finds on that doesn't have mold or whatever on it...so i was getting grossed out, then she asks me what cheese i would like,i would like swiss.....so she gowes through the cheese throwing away the top 5 peices before finding one to put on my sandwich... and then scrapes the onion off of the bottom of the bucket and tosses it on there too. so f-ing nasty! so do you think i wanted to eat that? no! but you know what...i did. and i didn't even throw up! so then i went to the liquor store and got CORN whiskey and i should have known that it was going to be nasty because it is a lighter version of moon shine, it was called shine on. so we get to the hotel in pendleton and find 3 guys standing by their tailgate with several top shelf liquors. we got out and of course...we were offered a shot. and of course....i took one...or two...ok it was 3! and so i let them have the first pull off of the "shine on." and that was the last drink they would ever have of that stuff...they almost threw up and then i called them pussies and took one myself....and they really were not pussies... so i was soon nicknamed virgina moon (it was distilled in virginia).

so we went up to the room and got ready for the night and headed off to town. now this is where things start getting fuzzy...ha ha! we went to a couple bars and headed to the convention center to the dance...i don't know why, but for some reason i got all mixed up and lost jade and megan so i had to call darcy and have her pick me up at the high school (keep in mind that we are at the convention center, not the high school) so they call me from the high school wondering wher i am and why the hell i would go to the high school. so after we got it clarified that i was not there, they picked me up and we headed downtown again! we went to a couple awesome bars and i was denied in one of them...i guess i was swaying back and forth. after that we headed back to darcy's friends' place where i fell fast to sleep (aka passed out ) and while i was sleeping there was a bangin party going on outside and i had no idea...weird! so i woke up to find myself phoneless. i must have lost it downtown...along with my pride...ha ha. i didn't mention that i was trying for an hour to get on the stage with the band...yeah, retarded.

no phone, so i had to wait to find a ride back to the hotel where i found jade sick as a dog.....and she would not be recovered until like 6 o'clock, so i walked around the booths with darcy and found the kids and hubby some sweet ass pendleton gear, and then we took off to the rodeo...we got our beers and nursed ourselves back to buzzed again (i'm not an alcoholic b.t.w.) and that rodeo is AMAZING! the stock and the cowboys and girls were awesome! this is a 5 hour rodeo, so ther is alot to see. after that we were standing around and i heard a voice yelling "virginia moon....virginia moon" and it ws those guys...oh lord! they were wasted and telling me that they had been talking about me and the whiskey for 24hours. they were pretty damn comical.

after we got away from them, we went out again and visited all of the same places as the night before...it was a blast!

so that is my weekend...there were plenty more things that happened, but i only told a few!

my kiddos

2008-09-26T08:36:00.000-07:00

ok, so before i post about my girls weekend, i am going to give you a little update on my kiddos! i just about pull my hair out every day...but seriusly, it is sooo worth it! kiya and masen has this HUGE love/hate relationship....every day when masen wakes up he yells for kiya until she goes upstairs and graces him with her presence and after that...the screaming begins! they seriously TRY to make each other mad, just so they can do their high pitch, blood curdling screams. once you get over the loss of hearing, it is kinda funny....its like they have scream wars or something. and then when ellie gets home...everything is suddenly peaceful again, it is really weird! who would have ever thought that ellie would be a peace maker? but before i talk about ellie, i will say some positive things about kiya and masen :) kiya is soooo cute and so dainty (when she isn't screaming). her dream is to grow up and be a princess or a unicorn (i tell her that she has a better chance of being a princess). she is also so observant...she will notice if i change my earings, if i am sad, if jake isn't home at the normal time, ect. and she is so sweet about it. she will say "mom, you look really pretty today with those earings in" or "i love those beautiful horse sheets you put on my bed, thank you mom." it is so cute! she also loves to cuddle...she is sitting next to me at the moment with her head rested on my shoulder :) so...that is kiya!

masen man is a pretty big handful! he is full of energy and a huge vocab. for a 2 year old! he says full sentences and they are so clear. he sits in the recliner with jake every night and has a little man to man convo. they talk about football, turkey hunting, elk, deer (mule deer and whitetail;) and whatever else comes up. it is way cute....or should i say bad ass? he always asks me... "mom, we go to the gas station? and get some treats?" and "you work tonight mom?" and to jake he says "dad, we go to the hills, and shoot coyotes?" yeah, he is pretty dang cute...he puts on his own shoes now, and it never fails, he will put them on the wrong feet...everytime! but hey, he's tryin' aint he? ha!

and lets see...ellie has been doing awesome in school. i think she is ready to go full days! she still has her boyfriends, and they are still wooing her with gifts....everyday! jake loves that :) i started crying the other day though...i will tell you why but let me tell you this first.... iam not an ass kisser....there are moms there that practically stalk the teacher....it is kindergarten for shit sake! so obviously i don't see every move that the kids are making at school. and i never got a note sent home saying that the kids were having a play with the puppets that they made. yeah...ellie came home and the first thing she said was "mom...how come you didn't come to my play? i was the letter d. everyone elses parents were there and you weren't and i was crying cause you weren't." if that wouldn't make you cry, i don't know what would. so what should i do...be an ass kisser? for one, i can tell you that i turn that backpack inside out looking for papers now! we will see if i get the next invite. but back to elles....she got her cast off so i am scared to death that she will break it again, but i guess it can't be in a cast forever right? (maybe it can?) welp, that is all i got...i will write my girls weekend post next! lots o' love..cas

the recent happenings

2008-09-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

so, it has been a couple weeks since my last post...and sooooo much has gone on! i started work...first of all! that has been a blast! cool hand lukes is the name of the place and i just love it! the theme is way cool, and if you know me, you know that i am a sucker for the western and cowboy theme! i have been making some good money, but it seems to dissapear as soon as i make it! but i guess that is how it goes...esspecially with 3 kids :)
ellie rae just started kindergarten and LOVES it! she acts so grown up and like she knows everything...i have to remind her that she isn't even in first grade yet :) jake is having a hard time with it too....ellie came home the other day with a necklace on. i asked her where she got it... she told me "mike gave it to me mom, he was going to get me flowers too, but he didn't want them to die in his backpack....and he also said he would love to bring me chocolates".....WTF??? seriously..."mike" must have a suave father if he already knows how to woo a girl in KINDERGARTEN!! ha ha...i think it is funny myself, but jake on the other hand is already cleaning his gun... j/k! her cast comes off on monday....and this whole broken arm thing is costing an ARM and a LEG! 15,000 dollars? seriously...i ahould have left the sucker broken...not really. jake told me that if they are going to charge us to have the damn ting cut off, that he was going to do it himself! that scared me and little ellie...so i just told him that they didn't charge :) jake really knows how to go about doing things...ha ha ha!
on to the next thing.....this weekend i am heading off for a girls weekend! it will be soooo much fun! i get to go to the pendelton round up.....YEE HAW! we have a nicew hotel and so much to do i won't even know what to do with myself! jake is soooo good about letting me have my "me" time....i don't know what i would do with out his fine little bootay! the kids have gotten to spend so much more time with him these past couple months...it is sooo important to have the daddy time! he knows how to put the smack down a little bit better than i do :) i come home and the kids have picked up all of their toys, brushed their teeth and have gotten ready for bed! now that's what i'm talkin about!
and l;ast but not least....good bye summer! it went by soooo fast this year....i really didn't get to do all of the things i wanted to, but it was sooo much fun anyways! i "found" myself this summer! ...this is my blog from myspace :

good bye sweet summer
Current mood: melancholy

i am soooo sad to see the summer come to an end. it feels like it was only here for a very short time. i am a little dissapointed that i didn't get to do all of the things that i wanted to do this summer.....but overall it was a great time!

i have kinda found myself this summer. i found that i need to surround myself with the right people and that i don't always need to be around people to be happy. my kids and my husband love me unconditionally and that is really all that matters. i have found that i only have a few good friends...some that are new, and a couple that have been in my life for a while. i figured out who really cares, and who really doesn't. i have learned that i am a beautiful person, in my own way....that one has been the toughest....but i have started to look at myself differently. i can't be like every other person, i am myself...and i am ok with that. my life is wonderful and i have a lot of what many people wish for.

i got my new job, and that has made life a lot easier as well. i can get out of the house for a while and make money talking to people and serving them...not bad ehe? it also gives jake some more alone time with the kids...so they get a little bit of daddy time and daddy rules...ha ha. it is rough not seeing jake as much anymore, but we will get through it and get back to normal in no time :)

anyways...good bye summer...and see you next year! hopefully more good things will be in store!

i will be writing about my girls weekend in the next blog....so long!

my fav pic of the summer :)

the worst weekend EVER

2008-08-10T11:32:00.000-07:00

so...do you ever have one of those days when nothing goes right? well, for me, it has been a whole entire weekend.
lets see...to start it all off, we were planning on having a big bon fire party and we got food and such for it...and then everyone suddenly had to do other things...so we only had a few peeps over...and that was ok with me, until i tried going off of the rope swing. i missed the landing and my foot went one way and i went the other. so i woke up in the morning, and noticed that i could NOT walk whatsoever...i had to crawl or hop on one foot, and that is no fun. and the funny thing was...is that i just got a job that i was supposed to start that day...funny huh? so jake took me to st. al's in eagle and got the whole shebang...x-rays...the whole bit..and it ended up being a sprained foot....which i had no idea you could do. but i still couldn't walk, so i had to get crutches.
we went home and the kids broke a few glasses, kiya steped on some, so we had to remove that from her feet...and then it was off to work (well, training for work at least) i sat in the blazing hot building that doesn't have a/c yet along with a ton of other people and listened to the stuff the were teaching us. WHEN THE WORST THING OF THE WEEKEND CAME
i was sitting in the back row and the owner said, "um cassie, i need to see you" so i went t=with no intention of leaving...and she said "you might want to grab your purse and your things...it is an emergency"....oh shit. so i went outside and saw jake in te car with the kids..and ellie is screaming bloody mary. her bone was sticking out of her arm...so it was back to the hospital. but it was no sprain.....it was time for surgery. she was transferred downtown in a ambulance and me and the kids met she and jake there later. poor little girl had to wait like 6 hours before her surgery. she ended up getting 3 pins in her arm. she was soooo brave and i am sooo proud of her...but i could seriously go for ssomething positive at the moment. i'll keep you posted on how she is doing. signing out.

family camping 08'!!!

2008-08-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

so i just got back from such a great 5 days of camping!!! we left thursday to head up to deadwood....and after about 3 hours of annoying bumpy roads, we finally made it there!

the first night was hecktic cause there was sooooo much stuff to set up and get ready....so we really didn't get a chance to hang out, but we got our tents and things set up...and i am now realizing that jake and i are probably the only people in this world that don't take an air mattress camping. what is up with the 3 layer blow up mattresses anyways? at least that is what i thought...i think our next camping purchase will be one of those little buggers :) my back feels like it is broken ha ha! the kids has fun even through all the chaos...there were millions of frogs up there so the kids had bucket and buckets of frogs...babies, mommies and daddies! and all of the millions of frogs had names. so cute! they also loved feeding the chipmunks! they started off the weeknd by dumping out the majority of the food we brought and feeding it to them.....jake was happy about that one ;)

the next day the rest of the fam showed up and we decided to bust into the margaritas! now that day was funny! we went on 4wheeler rides, went to the dam in the jeep and sang kid rock at the top of our lungs! it was sooo much fun! i don't think anyone felt at the top of their game that next morning!

the next day we just kinda dinked around in the lake....it was soooo gorgeous and it was just the right temp. to go swimming in....so i was out there swimming for a good 3 hours! later that night jeff, lana, jake and i decided to take the boat out and try to catch some fish. lana and i had a few shots of crown before we left, so we were a little giggly....we didn't notice that we lost our lure and hook right off the bat! and jeff didn't bother to tell us, so we were casting for no reason...but it was funy as hell when he told us the next day!

i don't want to bore you with every detail of the trip, so i will end here, but it was a wonderful weekend with wonderful company! i can't wait till next year!

i hope everyone is enjoying their summer as i am!

big fun birthday bash!

2008-07-28T07:21:00.000-07:00

me and my sis

sooo, this weekend we had our big birthday bash for masen, my sis and myself! and let me tell ya....it was a BLAST!!!! my sister and i spent two whole days cooking, and decorating....it was a lot of work, but totally worth it! we made potato skins, stuffed mushrooms, chicken basil pasta, black bean and corn salsa, bruchetta, artichoke dip and a big elk cake for masen! my mouth is watering just thinking about it! we also had a wonderful selection of drinks from margaritas, to beer, to mai thais!

we had a ton of wonderful friends and family show up, so it made it even better! masen had a hay day opening up his presents. he got camo and harley clothes, baseball bats,tractors, and play guns...along with a coon skin hat.... so he pretty much has no choice but to be a little bad ass! he spent the night with his cousins and when we picked him up in the morning, he opened all of his presents over again and had an even better time than the first time around! ha ha!

my sis and i made a really ghetto old mix of songs that we played throughout the night including hits such as barbie girl, macarena, the right stuff, i'm a bitch, and so on and so forth...i think everyone just loved it...or at least we got a kick out of it! i ended up knocking over one of the tables with all the drinks on it while jake and i were dancing, so i managed to embarass myself... like always:)

anyhow it was a grand ol' time and i want to wish my baby boy, and my awesome sis a happy, happy birthday!

me jake and masen...and some of his gifts

our fishing kiddos!

2008-07-21T09:27:00.000-07:00

so the last couple weekends the kids have gotten to go fishing. they have such a blast (when we are actually catching some) ellie likes to catch them in the net....while kiya just likes to hold the slimy little buggers...and masen just kinda sits and watches, but there is no doubt in my mind that he will love to catch fish too sometime in the very near future :) here are some pics...

this is a very short post, but i just wanted to show off the pics of my cute little fishers! i hope all is well with everyone!

it has been a while!

2008-07-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

sooo...where do i start? this summer, so far, has been wonderful! we have been camping, fishing, partying, and hanging out in the sun! jake and i have been looking for a place to move into and i have been thinking about getting my job....i have yet to go apply :) i am trying to find a place close to where we are looking for a place, and a 4-10 p.m. job, so we will see! the kids are absolutly LOVING summer. ellie is almost there on the whole learning to swim thing and kiya is a little fish as well....masen is still warming up to the fact, which is a-ok with me! kiya's new obsession is pretty much anything i wouldn't touch...she loves filling up the horse corral with water and slip and sliding around...she loves frogs, breaking worms in half for us when we go fishing, and everything in between. it's gross, but it is soooo damn cute! masen has been talking up a storm.....he says everything(even things you don't want him to say) ha ha....my favorite would have to be when i was changing his diaper and he said "mom....thats disgusting! " and he always says "i love pop." anyways enough of me bragging about my little sweeties!

masen is just like his daddy!

we have a few birthdays coming up including mine, masen's and my sisters...we are planning a fun cocktail party and it should be a blast! also, jake and i are going on 3 years in august.... it is such a good feeling...these days people hardly stay married for a year, so i feel pretty accomplished, and i know that there will be plenty more years to come, we are more in love every day! that sounds sappy and dumb, but it is the truth :)

me and my man on our weekend alone:)

my little guy will turn 2 and i will be 24!

here are a few more pics!

ellie being a diva

jake in the pool :)

ashley and i

me and my sissy at terry's

cute lil masen

mule days

2008-06-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

well, jake just got back from salmon fishing...with no salmon...bummer! but whatev! me and the kiddos had a great weekend! to kick it off, we went to the Mule Days carnival which is theeeee shiiiiiiz! we thought eagle fun days was a good time? the kids did everything from riding rides, to painting faces, to eating some massive corn dogs! and the happiness on their faces was worth the whole 150 bones i spent there...ha! but seriously...it was! then the next day, we went to the parade which was a total hit with the kids...especially the candy being thrown from the floats! it took them a while to figure out what they were supposed to do...but i let them know that they have got to be aggressive, and push kids out of the way...or no candy for you! ha ha ha..they learned this quickly!

afterwards the adults got to have a little bit of fun......we made gross martinis had a bon fire and went off of the rope swing a few times....only falling short of the landing once :) anyways.....i didn't have my hubby here this weekend...which is always hard, but we managed to have an awesome time!!

and p.s.......i don't know how to put pics where i want them or really know how to use this thing at all...so if anyone could let me know....that would be awesome!

time to blog again!

2008-05-20T06:56:00.000-07:00

lets see here, the last time i blogged was a while ago...so here we go. i am sooo happy that it is starting to warm up outside....we love it when it is warm because our family loves to do things outdoors. i have had so many comments lately form people telling me that it is so cool that we do things withthe kids all the time and how we are always togetheras a family. it is nice to hear that, but seriously...i wouldn't have it any other way and i think people are missing out. our kids are going to be some experienced, outgoing kids. a couple of our kids favorite things to do lately include horse races, rodeos, camping, fishing, and going out to shoot whistle pigs. i love it!

and what else has been going on? well, i decided that i need to look for a job. just at a nice place to eat at night....i need to get out for at least a couple hours and we could always use the extra cash....i guess it wouldn't relly be extra...more like needed cash. so, i will be on the job hunt until i find something that i like!

we recently went up to jordan valley for the rodeo ther, and we had such a blast!!! there were sooo many little kids for our kids to play with and the rodeo had some amazing livestock! the greatest part of all would be the streakers....everyone at the same time noticed two guys running accross the arena butt ass naked! they jumped over the shoots and ran into the hills, but eventually got ropped by the cowboys and taken to jail...sooo funny!!!! anyways...after the rodeo, we sat in the shade to cool off....and jake drank is 20 beers :) and then it was off to the dance. it was in the highschool gym and it really looked liek a high school dance when we got in there...everyone on the walls, not dancing. so what better to do than to make it happen? jake was about 30 beers down by this point, so me, jake and the kids my bro and his fiance' got er' done! we went out and danced our little hearts out and of course i was laughing the WHOLE time!! so everyone started joining in, and byt that time, the kids were tuckered out and we headed back to camp. it was an awesome time and a kick off to out summer full of camping, rodeos, and fun!

pics and in-laws

2008-04-15T10:59:00.000-07:00

so, i found some more pics i want to put on here....and a couple of them have pics of my in-laws in them, so i wanted to take a sec and give a shout out to my in-laws. i am closest to jake's dads side, and that is genrally who we end up hanging out with. jeff and lana have helped us out sooo much since we have been married. and they are a freakin' blast to hang out with as well! i seriously would hang out with them over my friends most of the time! wea re planning on doing at least 2 or 3 camping trips with them this year, and i can't WAIT!!! anyways...thats all i got for today!

cas

warmer weather

2008-04-14T20:27:00.000-07:00

so i haven't posted in a while....ok, like 5 months...but whatev! i am sooo happy that the weather has started warming up....now i can get the kiddos outside again and start up another summer full of camping and FUN!!! i am sitting here now with an awful sunburn! but i guess you've gotta get that first one out of the way:) and i also tried to be cool for the kids and ride their little bike down a hill yesterday and ate it BIG time....so on top of the sunburn, i have got massive bruises and my legs are one big scab! oh well...at least i got a slight giggle from the kids ....right?

we are getting ready to move at the moments....so i have got to get ellies school situation figured out. i'm pretty sure she will be going to star elementary or middleton...screw this eagle shiot! i really can't beleive that she is starting kindergarten this year. it is crazy!!!!

and last but not least...jake and i are going to start trying to lose weight here as soon as the weather warms up. i am sick of being a litttle overweight! it is annoying as HELL! so, i guess my bad ass home cooked meals will have to turn into more salalds and boring chicken...but i guess we are willing to do what it takes! i love the way jake looks, but my little bootay has got to get in gear. i want to wear a bikini this year...and look good!

welp...peace for now...if anyone even reads these things! /cas

blogging it up on a crappy day

2007-11-26T13:51:00.000-08:00

sooooo.... this is the start to my blogging i guess. i saw that a couple old friends had these things, and it made me want to write one. right now i am at home with my 3 sick kiddos...the stomach flu is a beast! who would have ever thought that i would have 3 kids byt he time i was 23? not me...that's for sure! but they are the best thing that ever happened to me...besides the excessive weight, stretch marks, and no time to do anything for myself...but whatev! life is going good for me right now...i would love to be able to get away at lest a couple hours a day for a job, but i also love staying at home with the kids. my husband (jake) is an electrician and is going to school to be a journeyman. he works super hard and is sooooo good to me and the kids. people who knew him in high school would not think that he was the same person...he has done a complete...well, almost complete 180. we arn't the typical parents, we still love to go out at times and we love to take our kids to do things that parents would normally get a babysitter for, but i guess that is what makes our kids tough outgoing little cookies! our oldest...ellie is a total tom boy whose dream is to be in a rodeo and also loves to go hunting with jake and enjoys holding up bloody antlers on her head and taking pictures. our 3 year old....kiya is a girly girl, but still loves to get dirty. she is sooo petit and every morning when i put on makeup, she has to have bright pink lipstick and purple eyeshadow....so cute!!!!! and then there is the little masen....he is gong to be a HANDFUL!!!!! he is just like jake, but he has his sweet moments too! he is sooo smart, and he amazes me every day! i could go on forever about my kids, but i think i will stop here.
welp, that is my blog for the day...signing out